Monthly Archives: April 2016

Pushing through

Last night I ran my furtherest distance since I began running at the end of last summer. 8.4km in 58 mins and I ran the whole way, no walking, no stopping to tie my shoe lace so I can catch my breath I just ran!.

I have until now been unable to push through that mental block that screams “stop I feel sick” or “stop I can’t breath” but last night I found my pace and my breathing fell into rhythm automatically, I pushed through each time my lazy side said “you could just walk this bit” my strong louder more confident side replied “you could but you don’t need to” so I just kept running, through the tiredness, through the stomach cramp that made me feel like I might hurl on the last mile and I made it back to the car park without hurling, now I feel like a proper runner.

Derwent park

When my son was born in 2009 I found myself isolated from the world stuck at home with a sick baby in a small village miles from friends and family. Unable to leave the house for long due to feeding schedules, equipment and lack of car (getting a bus with a disabled child and their equipment is not for the fainthearted but thats another story). So for 2 years I spent the majority of my days alone with a poorly baby whilst Adam worked. These days were spent watching TV whilst trying and failing to get my son to eat enough to thrive (he now has a tube in his tummy for food and is thriving). My confidence took a huge battering, I had been a Karate instructor for 3 years, I had stood in front of classes of 100 people, taught them Kata and spared men twice my size and strength, now I was a couch potato who couldn’t even help her child to eat, I rarely spoke to another adult other than Adam. I became a shadow of my former self, quiet, nervous, worrying wreck.

7 years on I feel very different, I haven’t gone back to the old me I am calmer, more serious yet more care free, my priorities in life have changed as has my way looking at life in general, I don’t get hung up on the small stuff. I am also more confident, more independent and more sociable ( I have friends now 🙂 ).


I have realised in these last 2 years since beginning my training and fundraising that we are all alone in everything we do but thats ok. No matter how many friends I have cheering me on ultimately it is me and me alone that will get me to where I want to be. It is the voices in my head that I have to overcome and only I can shout them down because only I can hear them.  When I am running I tell myself, ” I want to get fit no-one is going to do this for me so keep going” or “I won’t get to Base camp if I can’t even run 5k”. When I am sitting watching TV when I should be doing work I tell myself “none else is going to do it so get up and do it” In all aspects of my life I am taking charge and pushing through wether it’s self doubt, pain or plain laziness I am mentally slapping myself and encouraging myself. When I talk to myself (and we all do it I am not crazy) I talk positively and tell myself I can do it, I have stopped listening to the negative voice so much that I rarely hear myself thinking “I can’t do this”.

Without a doubt running has changed my life, taking on the challenge of trekking to Everest Base camp and raising £5,000 for St Oswald’s is the best thing I could have done for myself and for my family. You don’t have to take on a massive challenge to make positive changes but you have to move and do things differently if you want to change. Going a club, start one if there isn’t one near you, go for a walk, volunteer do something different and tell yourself you can.

If you would like to can can help me reach my fundraising goal for St Oswald’s  please donate on my justgiving page and share the link to spread the word 😀

Stay tuned the adventure is yet to come, 17 days and counting






22 Days to go!!

I am currently trying to find the balance between stepping up my training and not injuring myself with less than 4 weeks to go I don’t have enough time to recover from anything serious.

I am still running twice a week, keeping it to short 5K runs to avoid injury or strain. I also have a personal training session twice a week now and it’s getting tougher, wall sits, squats and one hundred different ways to make my leg muscles burn, I’m off there this afternoon and my legs are still burning from Wednesday. So training is going well I can feel a big difference in my fitness level, I think I will be ready, I just need to lay off the take aways :).

Kit wise I am not so ready. I have finally ordered some prescription sunglasses off the very helpful and knowledgable Andy from RockSpex, they should arrive in 12-14 days. I have the majority of my important kit like water proofs, down jacket but still need to find a warm yet not mortgage worthy sleeping bag. Then its all the little bits, pain relief, toilet paper, suncream, wooly hat (that reminds me I need to buy wool for my friend so she can make my hat). I can guarantee I will be buying stuff in Kathmandu and along the trail as I realise I have forgotten stuff.

Just a quick post from me today and no pictures, as I haven’t been out in the hills for a few weeks and I am pretty sure you don’t want or need to see pictures of my sweating at the gym.

Tomorrow I will be pack backing at Marks and Spencer at the Metrocentre from10am till 4 pm to raise some extra pennies for St Oswald’s Hospice. (if you are local pop in and say hello).

If you would like to sponsor me you can do that here on my just giving page or text BASE80 £10 (or other amount) to 70070.

You can also follow me on twitter @couchtobasecamp

See you later